Please be patient

Please be patient

Please be patient

I apologise for being anti-social my dear friends

I feel I have so much to do - it never seems to end

I feel so overwhelmed and then I shut myself away

I wish I wasn't like this, I wish that I could play

This dark cloud that consumes me, it fills my mind with woe

I feel alone, I am alone, I wish that it would go

I know some people feel annoyed that I don't participate

I often feel so anxious I can't venture past my gate

Please don't think I'm crazy, please don't think that I don't care

I find it hard to socialise with that dark cloud hanging there

I do not want your sympathy, I just want you to know

The reason why I don't turn up to the places I say I'll go

Everyone has issues, I know I'm not unique

Depression is an illness of which we seldom speak

There are many people out there who suffer much the same

Who battle through their problems and fear of being shamed

The stigma that's attached to this means we don't like to reveal

That, but for the grace of God, you may not have to feel

If all the stars align for me and the dark cloud goes away

I can grab my gear and join you and we can spend a lovely day

But if my confidence deserts me as it often seems to do

Please accept that I don't want to inflict my sadness onto you

I can come across as confident and self-assured I hear

But behind that mask you can sometimes see the anxiety and fear

I am not that crazy lady that I often say I am

So please be patient with me, I will join you if I can