Secret WhispersSecret Whispers

Secret Whispers

 

I feel I'm "She who must be avoided" in many people's eyes

Always thought the worst of, no matter how I try

To be the best that I can be and do my family proud

But seems no matter what I do, fitting in is not allowed.

 

I sadly lack in confidence to step out there and be

The person that lies deep inside just waiting to be free

She's been knocked back so many times, she cowers deep inside

Afraid to step out bold and brave, it's easier to hide.

 

Secret whispers going on and no-one wants to tell

Just what it is, and so my life becomes a living hell

No chance to make things right and to correct what's being said

Instead I'm left here wondering and told it's "in my head".

 

I know that I am not alone in feeling like I do

There are many others out there hurt by secret whispers too

So hard to rise above them, so hard to just ignore

It's easier to hide away when you can't take it any more.

 

Condemned, hung, drawn and quartered has been the story of my life

Being branded a "snob", a "liar" and "negative" stabs me like a knife

I am not "She who must be avoided" and a trait I sadly lack

Is the courage and the confidence to step up and fight back

 

But fighting back is difficult when the problem is not known

Instead it festers out there from the seeds someone has sown

It's become a vicious circle of which there is no end

Afraid to put myself out there, to be knocked back by a "friend".

 

Secret whispers do not help me, because I'm not allowed to hear

That with which I have been tried and sentenced by my peers

Life becomes too tiring to try and fight those whispers every day

If people believe those whispers, they're not "friends" anyway.

 

Secret whispers don't help anyone, they cause many people pain

They turn sunny skies and happiness into sorrow and endless rain

Secret whispers are a waste of time, often based on lies forsooth

Tell me, am I so far off the beaten track or too close to the truth...

 

© Noelene Kuzman

 

Photomanipulation created in Photoshop

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Background - Fairiegodmother

Windows - raeyenirael_stock

Model - Rixu_stock

Curtain - hotshot34

Gossipers - kxhara

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